Hey, I have read your diary on more than one occassion. I actually found you from "bo's" diary.  I am going to say a few things being an outsider looking in. There are two totally different perspectives from you both. His perspective is way off from yours. I too see the constant need to be together with you and am similar to you in that regards. I think that he truly cares for you however, I personally think that it should go slower?  It is not your responsibility to take care of him. He is a big boy. When my husband gets trashed I don't sit with him in the bathroom. and vice versa. If we get that trashed it is our own fault and we get what we get.  On the subject of reading your emails, I think it is totally inappropriate. He needs to respect your provacy. Whether he does it with good intentions or not it is still a violation of your privacy.

He speaks very highly of you and from reading your diary you seem like a very sweet lady. I have been through a lot in my 25 years, I know not that long. But I have been through several relationships in which I should have avoided or had some warning signs. Good luck to you with yours! Maybe you and him just need to sit down and have a chat about do's and don'ts or what makes you uncomfortable. You shouldn't feel guilty for having the feelings that you do. It is what it is and it can only change if you both sit down and talk about it. Good luck and it you ever want to talk email me at anamiaallie@gmail.com!

Haunted by the Past

But Blessed by the Future

B I wish I could take away all the bad things that happened to you... I wish I could have been there for you back then like I am now. Unfortunately I can't ... but I can make you a promise.

That I'll make your life so good from now on. To give you the happiness you deserve.

I love you with all my heart and I always will.

We are going to have the greatest future together... Full of love and affection and just being able to be us without fear of what's happened before. We have grown stronger through our troubles and learned our love for each other through our past.

You are the best thing that ever happened to me. Don't think about the past... Think about the future... A bright one awaits us. I love you so much. And always will

Love From your...
Bo Beary Forever

Hey Beautiful

I'll make sure your fairy tale comes true

I love you so much B

I know our pretty idea will come true

I believe you

I love you

Be mine forever B.

I love ya B.

I understand the sh*t going on in both our lives.

I can't make you choose I know.

Hopefully you'll have fun and i'll have fun and in the long run...

we can be together. Best mates forever

Thought I'd just tell you I still love you. No matter what... Whatever happens yu're my guardian angel and I'm yours.

Love ya

lol yea right... heart breaker

I feel a little better now

Yeah I don't mind taking you down...

I think we need to talk about this B.

MSN?

I'm still going to take you down... It just hurts B and I'm sure you can understand that. You wanted Michael right? I wanted you. How much pain did you feel when he wanted to be casual friends? How much pain did I feel when you couldn't look at me in the way I looked at you.

I don't blame you for whats happened. I blame myself for falling. I just wished that first time I told you I felt this way you'd tell me. At least I wouldn't hope for something more.

And f*** you know how pissed I was last night. You know I was throwing everything out there just to hurt you. Like I felt you hurt me. I know you didn't deserve it. Its just how I deal with pain.

And don't think that right from the start I wanted to be with you this way. Its just through all the time we spent together I realised you did need someone. And I wanted more than anything to be that guy.

And I won't leave... but I can't let myself get so close to you. I can't take this pain. I'll be your friend but not like we had it. I can't be the support for anyone anymore. I'm not stable like I once was... how can I hold you up when I can barely stand.

Don't hate me like Ant. Just give me time and maybe if I start having fun with 'Flatmate,' burger fuel girl, maty... I can realise I don't want a relationship. I don't want you that way. But I still cherish our friendship.

At the very least... don't hate me

damn its hard to read this.

I'm sorry for what I put you thru B

But problem solved I think... I hope.

You haven't lost a friend, you haven't lost me :P

And you don't have a problem B, I did this all. It was all my advances, please don't beat yourself up over it.

Maybe we should just forget it happened... at least till better times.

Love you and always will (again as a friend maybe more :P)

Bobby

there's a quote that says, "I didn't want to be with him, I was just jealous he wanted to be with her."

everything happens for a reason, people come and stay as long as we're supposed to have them around but they will always teach us lessons even after they leave....hard to accept sometimes, but true

someone better will come along, just don't look

Hahaha, thanks..

I know what kind of person doesn't have a river?? ggeeez I'm on loner!

Support&Loove, Chloe xxxxxxxxx

Sounds soo nice! I wish I lived near a river so I could do that! Sounds beautiful!

Support&Loove, Chloe xxxxxxxxx

IMAo,

sweet!

cheers!